Dear Love

I thought I’d write you a letter, those always make you smile
You’re a hopeless romantic though you pretend that’s not your style
I’m learning every part of you, you’re my favorite subject
And if at everything else I fail, the Art of loving you I’m going to perfect

I’m in love with you and I don’t say it nearly enough
You try to act nonchalant but I always catch your bluff
You’re the most beautiful human I’ve ever set my eyes on
And if it’s meant to be, I’m glad it’s you I’ve stumbled upon

You make me believe a higher power
I love you more every second, minute, hour
There’s no way this love is mundane
In every lifetime, I’d choose you again and again

Forever isn’t nearly enough for all my plans with you
The second our lips met, I just knew
There’s no one else I want to do this with
I thought loves like these were just a myth
Yet here I am, wanting your happiness more than I want mine
My love, you’re nothing less than divine
And if I had a wish, I wish this would last throughout eternity, in space and time

Yours,

Fairytale

I wish I could promise a happy ending
And if I said I’m perfect I’d be pretending
I wish I could heal all the wounds in our hearts
Get super glue and join all the broken parts

I wish I could be everything you need
Your favorite song to listen to
Your favorite book to read

I want to give you everything you desire
Want to help you achieve all you aspire
Be in your corner in every fight you face
In the chaos of the world I want to be your safe space

I love you with every fiber that is me
Sometimes I wish you could use my eyes to see
I’d do anything to keep your smile alive
And even if everything else dies our love will strive

I see you, all of you, and love every piece
You’re my happy place, my peace
I’ll give you the world if you allow
All I want is us forever, don’t even care how

So I can’t promise a forever ever after
But I can promise infinite love and laughter
I can promise to never let you go
Be your “yes” even if the rest of the world screams “no”

I See You

I see all of you and am utterly amazed
It’s embarrassing how your touch has me dazed
How your smile melts the iceberg my heart was
And I can’t help but sink deeper in you just because

I see your fidgety legs when you’re nervous
I feel the tension when something is up with us
Your broad shoulders back when you’re proud
And how when you’re happy you get loud

I hear how my name sounds musical on your lips
How one look from you all my defenses strips
How your hug puts back all my broken pieces
And your scent serotonin increases

I see all of you, inside and out
I love every detail, through and throughout
One day maybe you’ll see what I see
And with my obsession you’ll finally agree

You’ll Never Know

You’ll never see yourself like I see you
You’ll never be sure what I say is true
You don’t see how your smile slowly forms
How your laugh settles all my storms

How you twist a strand of hair when you’re distracted
All the things you don’t know you do are why I’m so attracted
How anxiety makes you bite your nails
How you obsess over tiny details

You’ll never see how beautiful you look while in the zone
How when you leave everything smells like your cologne
You’ll never see the crinkle between your brows
How I stare at you for however long time allows

You’ll never feel how sweet your lips are
How I want to kiss every scar
How crying actually makes you look strong
And how your hug makes it feel like nothing can go wrong

You’ll never see how attractive you look
How with that smile of yours you get anyone in a hook
How much I love every detail about you
And the more I know the more I wish I knew

L-O-V-Me

A hopeless romantic with a frozen heart
In the play of your life I don’t know my part
Fallen head first in the deep end of this illusion
Woken up in the clouds, imagine my confusion

A roller coaster of emotions going through my brain
Asking questions makes me look insane
Heartbeat racing and breathing shallow
Is your heart full of me or is it hollow?

Consistent inconsistencies and truthful lies
Sad smiles and happy cries
I don’t understand what you want, what you feel
Is this all in my head? Does it exist for real?

Just tell me what you want, what you need
Do you want us to make it? Will we succeed?
Is there even a “us” in your view?
Look at me now… if I only knew

Six Words

“I am in love with you” – you say looking me in the eye
How do I react? Do I laugh? Do I cry?
Do I tell you I feel the same?
Do I tell you I’m scared of the pain?

Am I honest? Do I change the subject?
Am I going to be judged? Can I object?
My mind goes blank and breath shallow
The space in my heart was supposed to be fallow

Those six words leaving your lips felt surreal
Like at any moment a prank you would reveal
Like I was drowning in land and you put my head in the sea
Are you saving me or killing me? The truth I can’t see

I’m scared of trusting, of believing
My brain knows people can be deceiving
My heart though, is a hopeless romantic
Showing me how it feels beating frantic

A few seconds went by and you’re still here
All the voices in my head screaming “BEWARE” loud and clear
But this… this never felt so right
I can tell you’re as scared as I am, so… fight or flight?

Less You

I wish you were less… you
I wish your smile didn’t make me melt
Or every word you say didn’t sound true
This is something I never felt

I didn’t think this through… now you’re here
Stuck in my mind making my pride disappear
The wrong cards I’ve been dealt
Because now I’m losing and deep down that was my fear

I made a mistake and that’s clear
It wasn’t a game but I still wanted to play
I didn’t have a say… you won either way
Now I’m stuck here watching me lose in replay

I wish you weren’t so distracting
So I wouldn’t slip and fall harder every time we are interacting
I wish your scent wasn’t so intoxicating
All my senses and my brain are debating

I wish your hand didn’t fit perfectly in mine
I wish you believed when I said I was fine
I wish I could turn off the effects you have in me
I wish I wasn’t too blind to see… how hard I was falling
Sanity feels like an estranged friend
The distance between us increased by you
And there’s nothing I can do
For even if this poem comes to an end
Whatever this is won’t, darling

You’re Art

You inspire me in every way
The way you touch me, the things you say
The way you are simply you
That’s all you really need to do

I’m stubborn and you pretend you hate it
I see that smile even though you won’t admit it
Every curve, every angle is perfection
Every exchange, you can’t fake connection

Solid in our fluidity we transform
You are both the shelter and the storm
You are madness and sanity
Switching from purity to profanity

You are art, believe me
Now that you’re in words, do you see?
Need all the colors in the rainbow to paint you
Need all the words I don’t say and you still won’t have a clue

I want it all

I thought I wanted everything,
All the cars, clothes, all the bling;
I craved the dollar signs and a private plane,
Now that I think back and see I was vain.

I dreamed of the penthouse with a view,
Partying every weekend with my crew;
Then on Monday go back to being the boss,
Being only sad when there was financial loss.

Then I met you and you were immediately a crush,
You came along and taught me so much;
There’s more to life than just a nice Instagram feed,
There’s more to life than being guided by greed.

I want it all now but I want it with you,
I don’t want the penthouse if I can’t call you my boo;
I don’t want the plane if you’re not in it with me,
You make me a better human, see?

Here I am (2)

Here I am writing about you again,
Your name flashes on my mind as soon as I grab a pen;
You painted the walls of my being with colors of you,
You make me believe all this love shit can be true.

You’re everything I wished for and so much more,
You glued back the pieces of me that life tore;
And of anything I’ve never been so sure.

It doesn’t make sense, it never will,
Like I have a chronic illness and finally found my pill;
You weren’t scared when I showed you my scars,
You simply accepted me like I’m the universe and they’re my stars.

Now my worst fear is losing you, losing the “me” you helped build,
But I’d hate to keep you here, unfulfilled;
So as I write this, from my eye falls a tear,
Because for you, I’ll have to face my fear.

Hope you forgive me and one day understand,
You’re the ocean and I’m a grain of sand;
You fill me up in all the ways possible,
But the other way around is implausible.

I love you more than my words could ever explain,
You’re what keeps me from going insane;
Letting go of what you love is the biggest proof you can give,
But I’ll be here, still loving you, for as long as I live.